8. mostly easy with a fast finish.
spent most of the run thinking about how these next few weeks are going to play out. i am seriously questioning my fitness level for the TOU 1/2 on saturday. a great (miraculous) day for me would be sub-1:20. a more realistic and achievable goal would be 1:22-1:23. today i was laughing at those times. now i am feeling like 1:25. my 5k is probably 19:45 at this point.
i am grateful that i have been able to continue running, but ever since des news i have felt "off". i am starting to think it has nothing to do with des news. it's been over a month; no more post-marathon excuses.
the most frustrating thing for me has been to watch the days tick by without ever feeling like i am progressing. each day gets closer and closer to TOU, and i don't feel like i am getting any quality or substance out of my workouts. so while the mileage is somewhat there, the confidence is not. it is not fun going into a race questioning your fitness, your speed, your health. i guess i will know for sure where i am at on saturday morning. i will be racing with a textbook strapped in front of my eyes...it's the only way i am going to get any studying done this weekend.